forever till forever meets no end

Tuesday, January 23, 2007 @5:52 PM

it suddenly dawned upon me today how such simple little things make my day such as a letter from my best friend and how simple things like a frown or a close friend who is feeling down or depressed spoils my day. it really spoils my day. its like almost everyday after school i feel like crying and when people ask me "why?" i can't seem to answer them. the feeling is just one of those things that can't be expressed with words.
i scraped my knee on the tennis courts today. its not the pain which irks me. the pain doesn't scare me its the scab thats gonna form that scares me because after the scab forms i won't be able to train properly.
cailyn told me to float to the top of my work soon, and i have to say i did only to sink all the way down again. i don't know whats gotten into me.

the miracles little things can do. a letter can patch up a misunderstanding, the fact that someone is concerned and willing to help you can make the whole situation better, the fact that i know i have my best best friend and my great seniors and friends to confide in can really change alot of things.

yet for some reason though there are so many great people around me to help me, i can't help feeling sad and becoming all depressed all over again when i see one of my best friends depressed, or when i hear a snide remark being passed it really ruins my day. the impact such a small action can create is really rather amazing.

the sun will shine on day.